There is one thing that I want right now.
Just one.
It's not expensive.
In fact, it costs nothing.
I want some me time.
No, I need some me time.
I need solitude.
And that is something I never get.
I don't want to get out or go anywhere.
I want my house all to myself.
I want everyone else to go somewhere.
For two whole days.
I want to be all by myself in my home.
I don't want to watch kid's movies.
I don't want to listen to kid's TV.
I don't want to hear any noise.
I don't want to get anything for anyone.
I don't want to do anything for anyone.
I don't want to get anyone dressed.
I don't want to make breakfast, lunch or dinner.
I don't want to bath anyone or read bedtime stories.
I can feel my stress levels rising.
Some people find solitude lonely.
Some people don't like to be alone.
The need to be completely alone is part of who I am.
It's the way I recharge.
But it's not going to happen.
It never does.
The second best way is to go for a long walk, by myself.
Guess what I'll be doing later today?
I dub this "The Ode to Motherhood" - I'm a loner too. I totally get it.
ReplyDeleteI get it too. Love the kids and family life but sometimes you just need some peace and quiet to do what you want and put yourself first for a change. That is an unexpected benefit of being a single Mum, as even though I miss them and fret when they are away from me, I do get some time at my home alone. Had a hot bubble bath this morning for the first time in years! Seemed so indulgent ...
ReplyDeleteI hear you Thea - one day when they are a little older it will happen. Hold onto that thought and enjoy your walk this afternoon. xxx
ReplyDeleteI get it Thea. Cate's right, it is an ode to Motherhood. Have a great walk. x
ReplyDelete*sigh*
ReplyDeleteI'm a loner too, there's nothing I love more than spending time alone in a quiet house.
ReplyDeleteHave a great walk :)
Totally get it! I feel like this a lot. I am lucky to get a few hours on the weekend to myself. I am happy for that. Enjoy your walk.
ReplyDelete*hugs many*
ReplyDeleteOh yes please! Ditto your whole post, especially today!
ReplyDeleteI commented earlier but it must have gone to that place where the odd socks live.
ReplyDeleteI am a people person and I recharge off other people, but I totally get this because being a mum, wife, partner it is very rare to have any time that is just devoted to me. Someone always wants/needs something. Whilst I love being needed I do need some total time out where nobody wants anything or any piece of me. Enjoy your walk today. xx
OMG I so hear you. I don't even want two days. Just a whole day and night - just for me - not to worry about anybody else.
ReplyDeleteI felt so sad for you when I read that. All I can say is that it gets better, eventually, but it's hard getting through it. I agree about solitude..I think it's mandatory from time to time. I hope you get some soon.
ReplyDeleteThea, probably the best thing about my empty nest is my me time. I get loads of it and I love it. Your turn will come, trust me x
ReplyDeleteI get this and felt the same all day. My skin is crawling for some completely alone time. I knocked back work tomorrow just to have a small patch of it while the kids are in care/school! I dream of a weekend..imagine a whole weekend! BLISS! LIke you though it never happens around here *sigh*
ReplyDeleteI have found motherhood so much easier/more enjoyable since my two have started school! Hang in there- the day *will* come. I need those quiet hours too- very much. Nearly did my head in not having them when mine were younger.
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