Dear Class of '85,
Our 25th school reunion was last night. I didn't go, didn't want to, but have just seen some photos of you on Facebook. I feel ill, seriously, physically ill. Why? Good question.
While it's true that I hated high school for the first few weeks, once I got past the massive change from a tiny country school to a large local high school and found a few friends, I didn't mind school so much. So why are these awkward, uneasy feelings bubbling up now....25 years later??
Being my own therapist here, I'd suggest it's because of the way a lot of you made me feel...or, to be more precise, the way I felt around a lot of you. I felt inferior, unpopular and totally not trendy.
I don't actually feel any of those things anymore but when I saw so many of your faces in those photographs, those feelings came rushing back and hit me with such a force my head was literally spinning and I felt sick to my stomach.
A lot of you were very nice kids and I would have loved to have seen those of you that I used to hang out with again. But your faces were not in the photos, I wonder why?? There were two faces I saw that made me smile, the rest just made me shake my head and thank God I did not go.
I am quite sure it was not the intention of most of you to make me feel this way. I am equally sure most of you never gave me enough thought to even consider it.
I'm glad you all had a great night at the reunion. I'll try to get over my hangups, but to be honest, some things just never change. Don't expect to see me at the 40th reunion.
Have a nice life,