Have you ever had a friend you were so close to that you could say anything to them?
I had a friend like that in college. We were housemates for two years, our bedrooms were adjoining, she had to go through mine to get to hers. We spent most of our time together and could practically finish off each others' sentences.
Not much processing of speech happens when you're that close to someone, you think it, you say it. But there is one thing I said to her that haunts me to this day.
One lazy afternoon we were hanging around in my room and she was lamenting about the colour of her eyes. They weren't really brown, they weren't really green, they weren't really hazel.
"They're slimy pond water colour," I say.
WHAT??? I said that?? Why did I say that? I thought it, but surely I didn't have to SAY it!
She was immediately deflated and I don't blame her. I quickly apologized and told her I was kidding, of course! And of course she didn't hate me for it. But I could have kicked myself. What was I thinking...exactly what I said, unfortunately.
These sorts of memories often pop into my head. Things I've said or done, or someone has said or done to me, from 20 or so years ago. I've said and done lots of stupid things but this one just popped up from my memory bank this morning. I wonder if she still remembers or ever thinks of it. I hope she doesn't every time she looks in the mirror!!