A New View

I had a revelation....again!
In the shower....again!!

At the moment we are lucky enough to be holidaying at gorgeous Coolangatta in a lovely holiday unit with pool, spa, sauna, gym.  We are unluckily enough to be having the crapest weather. Not a drop of rain or cloudy weather for months. We come to the beach...the weather turns sour. Did someone say Murphy's Law?

Anyhow, our 6 (I almost typed 5) year old boy was desperate to get into the pool from the moment we arrived. Yesterday afternoon was a no go. It was cold, it was windy, it was cloudy Mummy & Daddy couldn't get motivated. But this morning, there was no escaping the pester power. So off to the pool we went. It is heated, still not warm enough for me. And it does have a spa...bingo!! I could have stayed in that divine bubbly gorgeousness all day. But it started to rain and one drop signals 'outta there' for me!

We were sharing the spa with another young family. A beautiful young mum and her two very well behaved toddlers. As I sat there in my neck to knee swimmers (it's boardies and rashie only for me these days) I was feeling a little frumpy as the other mum sat there in her stunning much skimpier than mine swimsuit.

There would have been a time when I would have felt almost sick over that. I would have stressed about it for the rest of the day. I would have felt completely inferior and ugly. But today I was smiling at my kids having so much fun and enjoying the warm bubbles too much.

And the revelation that I just had in the shower?

I realized that...

Yes, I need to lose weight
Yes, I am now overweight according to my BMI and Wii Fit
Yes, I eat too much
Yes, I need to excerise more
Yes, I would love to look like that other mum in the spa.

But...

Only in the way that I covet a luxury car, a mansion, a maid, a cleaner, a personal masseuse.

Yeah, it would be nice.
But I don't need it to be happy.

That doesn't mean I'm giving up.
It just means I'm not going to think or worry about it quite so much.