This is a two part post. A before and after. Today is my first day back at work, teaching (albeit relief) after 7 1/2 years. Today I am not only Thea and Mum, I am Mrs Smith again.
It's 6:30am and I am so nervous I feel sick. Literally!
I'm running to the loo every 2 seconds (that may be a slight exageration).
But I am seriously....scared!
I'm shaking in my sheep-skin slippers.
My stomach has butterflies the size of cows.
I don't know if I can even eat breakfast.
I didn't sleep well, due mainly to children rather than nerves, but still.
My whole body feels stiff. I suffer from a condition that I like to call "Nervous Paralysis".
It's like getting the shakes, except I am trying so hard not to shake, my body freezes!!
It's just like I'm 5 years old and getting ready for my first day ever at school.
Why don't things get easier as I get older??
I'm almost 42, for goodness sake!!
OK, off to iron my clothes, make my (& my boy's) lunch, pack bags, do my hair and make-up!!
See ya on the flip side.
It's 7:55am, I'm about to walk out the door.
Somebody save me!
Why did I agree to this??
It's 3:25pm, I am home, it was terrible!
Hehe, just kidding. It was fine, totally fine...no, better than fine!!
Two small year four classes in one classroom, two teachers and two student teachers...it was the best way ever to ease back into it.
It also helped that still I knew 90% of the staff.
I've learned that my teacher hat still fits.
I've learned that my teacher voice still works.
And I've remembered that I really do enjoy being in a classroom and school environment.
Now, I'm ready for round two.
But I bet I'll still be nervous for awhile yet.
Thank you so much to all the lovely people who wished me luck and encouraged me.
All of your words helped so much!