Today is gonna be a changing day in my life!
Today I come home after school drop off....alone.
It doesn't feel right.
I've had a child or two clinging to me for almost six and a half years.
I still clearly remember looking at both of them as tiny babies and thinking,
"I don't ever want to leave you, I don't ever want you to leave me."
And I know that is not the aim of parenting,
I know we have to let them go.
But she's only three!!!!
Yes, of course I'm being melodramatic.
What's the big deal?
A million other mums are doing the same thing this week.
And I do see irony in spending most of the holidays just wanting a bit of peace for myself.
Today, I will have hours...hours...of peace.
And I feel sick to my stomach.
At least Miss 3 is happy this morning, she's excited, she's bouncing around the place all keen to go.
It might be a different story when we actually get there....?
My 6 year old boy, on the other hand, not so keen.
He's been all, "I don't wanna go to school," all morning!
But today is the day.
It's here, I can't change it.
Today my babies will be looked after by someone else.
And I will feel lost.
Oh God, can you imagine how pathetic I will be when they leave home?!