Today is gonna be a changing day in my life!
Today I come home after school drop off....alone.
It doesn't feel right.
I've had a child or two clinging to me for almost six and a half years.
I still clearly remember looking at both of them as tiny babies and thinking,
"I don't ever want to leave you, I don't ever want you to leave me."
And I know that is not the aim of parenting,
I know we have to let them go.
But she's only three!!!!
Yes, of course I'm being melodramatic.
What's the big deal?
A million other mums are doing the same thing this week.
And I do see irony in spending most of the holidays just wanting a bit of peace for myself.
Today, I will have hours...hours...of peace.
And I feel sick to my stomach.
At least Miss 3 is happy this morning, she's excited, she's bouncing around the place all keen to go.
It might be a different story when we actually get there....?
My 6 year old boy, on the other hand, not so keen.
He's been all, "I don't wanna go to school," all morning!
But today is the day.
It's here, I can't change it.
Today my babies will be looked after by someone else.
And I will feel lost.
Oh God, can you imagine how pathetic I will be when they leave home?!
Today's the day for me too - youngest of three starts prep. Will shed a few tears x
ReplyDeleteOh Thea. You know I know exactly what you are going through.
ReplyDeleteHugs to you (all).
Focus on your music, your peace, your home, alone, and all the benefits that is.
And look forward to her joyful face when you pick her up...
xx
Sweetie, I know at the moment the hours will seem to drag on but they will fly past.
ReplyDeleteIt wont be long before the end of the day is here & they are back home from school.
Look at January already next Monday is the last day of the month and it seems like only yesterday we were celebrating the start of January.
(((( Hugs )))) XXXX Kisses XXXX
Aww BIG HUGS. Enjoy your time, Thea. And it's okay to shed a tear and then do a little happy dance, okay? Okay xx
ReplyDeleteIt will be okay. I promise. the great thing is having time to do things while they're gone - and then having the time to give them your undivided attention when they come home.
ReplyDelete{big hugs}
ReplyDeleteI was a blubbering mess when Miss 3 started preschool last year. She'll be going to "big school" next year and it's already making me teary.
Enjoy your day, hun x
Enjoy your free time, do something nice for yourself. I'm sure I'll be blubbering mess next week, when Miss 5 starts school full time x
ReplyDeletehugs many - thinking of you xx
ReplyDeleteI'm trying to come to grips with my little man starting preschool next week. I can relate so wholeheartedly with never wanting to let them go. But as you say, we need to so they can be their own people. Doesn't help the sick feeling in the stomach or the tears from falling though. Hope you both had a nice day in any case :o)
ReplyDeleteOh I'm always a blubbering mess. You'll be amazed how quickly those hours go though. (And if you really want to, if the staff are nice they won't mind you phoning to check in...)xo
ReplyDeleteThe hours will zoom past. I am not getting nearly as much done as I thought I would. It must be all that coffee-drinking and paper-reading I am doing.
ReplyDeleteThanks for stopping by, I hope the wine has lifted your spirits.
In a few weeks routine will be in place and it will be ALL good. Promise. ;)
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