You might remember that I was all worked up about a girls' night out in Brisbane at the beginning of the year.
I guess I am shy although I don't really like that word.
My mother always tried to get me out of my shyness as a child.
Dad never did, he understood because he was/is exactly the same.
Shyness is a part of me, it's who I am, and I'll be shy until the day I die.
I'm 41, I think it's fairly obvious that I am not going to grow out of it.
It is painful.
However I don't think I'm painfully shy.
I can chat fairly easily to most people.
At worst people who don't know me might think I'm just a bit quiet.
But on the inside I'm shaking like a leaf.
It is all about confidence, and I really do not have enough.
I do feel like a child when I'm faced with something new or I'm pushed out of my comfort zone.
I want my
If I'm with someone I know really well I'm totally fine.
But if I have to do something alone or with people I do not know well, I turn into a 40 year old 4 year old!
So what am I talking about?
The ABC - Aussie Blogger's Conference
If you haven't heard about it, where have you been?
I know a lot of you are hoping to go.
And some of my sweetest blogging/tweeting buddies, whom I would love to meet, have already promised to hold my hand.
But I still feel nervous.
I don't know if I can do it.
God, that sounds pathetic, but that's honestly how I feel.
Are you going?
How are you feeling about it?
And if anyone has some spare confidence lying around could you send it my way, please??