Wednesday, August 18, 2010
Sadly, I have come to realize that I am very easily overwhelmed.
It takes nothing to overwhelm me.
Little things like making a ham and salad roll at a picnic....overwhelming!
Going for a swim in the pool with the kids....overwhelming!
Having to pack to go away overnight or longer....overwhelming!!
Organizing my kids' birthday parties....OVERWHELMING!!!
And it seems to get worse for me every year.
It's an awful, physical sense of dread and panic.
I hate planning, I hate organizing, I find it completely stressful, I just want to run and hide.
But, I also want my kids to have a fun birthday.
I want them to celebrate with their friends and feel special on their special day.
I want to smack all those mothers who do elaborate birthday parties because now I'm feeling the pressure to measure up!
Well, "smack them" maybe a little harsh. But, you know...
Having my two children four days apart on the calendar was really bad planning, too.
It's twice the stress.
And I'm not even mentioning that Father's Day is the weekend before 'the birthdays' and our wedding anniversary is the day after. They're both almost forgotten now.
So anyway, today I ordered the cake decorations online.
Next I'm going to plan party food.
The birthdays are not until early next month, but if I do a bit at a time, I should feel less pressure, right?
Well, I'm not!
I'm still feeling it, and I don't like it.
It's making me look forward to the day where I'm sitting in a nursing home,
where everybody does everything for me and I don't have to worry about a thing.
A little extreme?
Posted by Thea at 1:02 PM