"Do I Really Wanna Blog?"
People have been saying it all over the blogoshpere at the moment.
It's like a malaise has hit and many of us have been affected.
I know I have.
I've been doubting for months whether in fact I do really wanna blog anymore?
I'm not posting as often.
I'm not linking as much.
I'm not reading many blogs any more.
My personal blogging community has changed and evolved and I'm still coming to terms with that.
I guess I'm grieving the loss of some bloggers I felt connected to that have given up or gone away.
So I stopped posting...for a bit. Not just here but on all my blogs. (Look right, you'll see them all!)
But I kept thinking about it.
I kept coming back.
And I realized that I was doing it for the wrong reasons.
I was blogging just for comments.
And when not many or none came, I felt like a failure.
And that has always been an issue for me.
I've needed constant approval ever since I was a child.
I'm not that confident in myself or my own abilities.
So when people pat me on the back, I light up.
And when I feel invisible, I run and hide.
Until I feel brave enough to face the world again.
Well guess what?
I'm feeling brave again.
I'm going to try to forget about the comments and just be me.
I'll post what I want, when I want, about whatever I want.
Love me or leave me...what you get here is me.
Because in the end, that's all I can be.
I've given my blog a brand new look.
It's a fresh new start.
Hope you like it and thank you so much for being here.
I love having you around.